[Viki doesn't realize that Jessica has DID and that she's speaking to
Tess]
Viki: There's obviously something wrong. You are clearly not
yourself.
Tess: Of course I'm myself. I mean, look at me. See?
Right here.
[Viki finds Tess eating alone -- she doesn't realize that it's Tess rather
than Jessica]
Tess: Antonio was here, but there was some kind of emergency at
Carlotta's.
Viki: Really? What happened?
Tess: Beats me.
Viki: Well, I hope it's nothing serious.
Tess: Right. That would be terrible.
Viki: I'll see you then at home, all right?
Tess: Mm-hmm. Don't wait up.
[Viki leaves and Tess mutters to herself]
Tess: I really want to have dinner with bionic woman. Jeez.
Dr. Jamison: Isn't your mother and Jessica's mother one in the same?
Tess: I guess if you catch her on the right day, she is.
Dr. Jamison: You seem to harbor a lot of resentment towards Jessica's
mother. Did she have something to do with this childhood trauma?
Tess: Please. That bitch couldn't mother me if she tried.
[Todd, anxious to tell Viki that Jessica has DID, has brought Tess to Llanfair.
Tess goes off on Viki when Viki asks her what's going on]
Tess: You want to know the truth, really? Okay, fine, I'll tell
you the truth. These past couple of months, all of my problems, the
meds, everything -- it's all your fault! My life's a mess because of
you!
Tess: (to Viki) It's your fault. Every bit of it.
Viki: I -- what is? I don't understand.
Tess: How could you with your head buried so far --
Todd: (interrupting Tess) Hey!
[Todd tells Tess that he wants the truth]
Tess: The truth, really? Well, get out of my face because Princess
Victoria has come down off of her throne to grace us with an audience!
Viki: (completely bewildered) Have I done anything?
Tess: You've done everything!
Todd: Don't you make this about her!
Tess: Why? Everything else is about her.
Todd: She doesn't need to hear this crap.
Tess: Oh, no, I disagree, and I'm on a roll.
[Viki has had a heart attack as a result of Tess yelling at her]
Todd: Viki? Can you hear me? Jess, call 911.
Tess: No.
Todd: For God's sakes, call 911! She's having a heart attack!
Tess: Oh. That again?
Tess: (singing to herself) "Mama had a heart attack,
I'm not taking Antonio back...Natalie, Kevin they all fall down."
[Before leaving with Nash for Napa, Tess, pretending to be Jessica, leaves
Viki a voicemail]
Tess: So anyway, Mom, I just wanted to leave you this message to let you
all know that I love you very much and I'll be home when I can. (she hangs
up the phone) Like never.
Viki: I will do whatever I can for you. I mean that, honey. I'm your mother.
I'm here.
Tess: Yeah, you might be here, but you're not my mother.
Viki: Why do you think I'm not your mother?
Tess: Because I -- I don't feel it. I don't feel what you're supposed to
feel. And I want to. I want to feel what everybody else on the planet feels.
And if I have this baby, if I become a mother myself, then --
Viki: So you're pregnant?
Tess: Yes.
Tess: I have been living my new life, my own life, one that I never imagined
that I could ever have. Where nobody was telling me what to do, nobody was
telling me how to act. I could do whatever I wanted. I could be just me.
And let me tell you, I had a blast. I was on my own, and that's how I liked
it. For a while. Till Nash. He gave me a home. He did so much for me. And
if I stay here, I lose him. And if I leave, I'm never coming back, ever.
Viki: Why? Jessie, if you've fallen in love --
Tess: Jessica hasn't fallen in love! I have!
Tess: You know, I was always such a problem for Jessica. She's so perfect.
No wonder everybody loves her. It's enough to make you sick. Well, me, anyway.
But now I'm living the life, my own life. And, sure, you know, at first it
was all partying and stuff. It was so not like Jessica. And then I realized,
you know, you couldn't go at it alone in this world. You need a little bit
of the considerate Jessica stuff, you know, the yin, the yang. Except Jessica
got most of the yin part. I got the sexy part of the deal. Now I don't know
what to do with her. I don't know what to do without her. We've just been
together for so long, I'm just -- now I'm scared.
Viki: Darling, what are you saying?
Tess: I'm afraid of the person that I am now.
Viki: Please, tell me, who are you?
Tess: It doesn't matter.
Viki: You don't have to worry about my heart. I'm better now. I can handle
anything.
Tess: You know, I was thinking about that last time. I went off on you and
I gave you a heart attack. I was glad. I wanted you to die. I was a bitch
back then. I didn't love anybody. I didn't think anybody could love me. Till
I stole Nash's car. You know, this is getting way too complicated. I'll just
go. I don't want to repeat all that stuff.
Viki: You -- you're not Jessica, are you?
Tess: Nope. No, I'm not.
Viki: Who are you? What's your name?
Tess: Oh. It's Tess. Get it? Jess, Tess -- kind of like --
Viki: Viki and Niki.
Tess: Exactly.
Viki: You're an alter?
Tess: No. I'm a person, just like you.
Viki: I don't understand this. When you were a little girl, there were no
problems. You had the happiest childhood.
Tess: You think so?
Viki: Yes, I did. I had no idea. Why does Jessica need an alter?
Tess: Are you really that clueless?
Viki: When I had the heart attack, that was you.
Tess: Yeah, well, I just told you that.
Viki: And you wanted me to die.
Tess: Then, not now, though I think it would be easier, regardless of what
Jessica says. She seems to think that we both need you.
Viki: And Todd knows. That's why he brought you to me, to tell me.
Tess: Oh, my god, you're not completely clueless, even though you're oblivious
to the past months when I was scamming you.
Viki: Months? How long?
Tess: Oh, god, a long time. I took the best bottle of booze from underneath
the christmas tree. All those cigarette butts, the broken beer bottles, and
you blamed it all on that faux Cristian. God.
Viki: That was you?
Tess: In the flesh, yeah, finally.
Viki: You know you can't keep on trying to live Jessica's life.
Tess: Yes, I do know that. That's why I have my own life, with Nash. And
I'm not going to give it up. Not now, not ever.
Viki: You need a doctor.
Tess: Really? So you can integrate me? So you can get your precious Jessica
back? No way.
Viki: It's for your good as well as hers.
Tess: Oh, go to hell! You only care about Jessica. You don't care about me.
Viki: No, that's not true. I love you, Tess. I love you just as much as I
love Jessica.
Viki: I do love you.
Tess: No, you don't. Nobody loves me, nobody but Nash. And he loves me for
who I am, not some psycho version of Jessica.
Viki: Tess, I know something about mental illness. I created alters myself
to protect myself from something that happened to me, something I couldn't
deal with. I couldn't handle it, and that's what Jessica has done with you.
You are here to protect her from something she can't deal with.
Tess: You don't understand.
Viki: I do understand, better than anyone.
Tess: That's why you want to get rid of me.
Viki: No. I am so grateful to you.
Tess: Grateful?
Viki: Yes, because you're helping my Jessie through this, whatever it is.
Viki: Tess, what happened to Jessica? Something happened that must have been
so traumatic she couldn't deal with it and she needed you to handle it for
her. Please? Please, I need to know. Please, you have to tell me.
Tess: I don't have to tell you one damn thing, because you already know.
Viki: I am so sorry. I should have seen the signs. Of all people, I should
have known.
Tess: No argument here.
Viki: Please, we have to talk about what happened to Jessica, please.
Tess: Well, I don't want to talk about the past.
Viki: But we have to make you whole.
Tess: "Whole"? Don't you mean transform me into Jessica?
Tess: You know, if you want Jessica back, you might as well kill me now and
get it over with, because that's what's going to happen. I'll be dead
anyway.
Viki: No, no, that's not true.
Tess: You know, you don't understand. I have a life with love, I have happiness,
and I'm not going to throw that all away for her.
[Nash tries to defend Viki]
Tess: God, you don't know her! She's Victoria Davidson. She's the empress
of Llanview. She's a bona fide nut job!
[Tess is taken to the hospital and put in restraints -- Viki is horrified]
Tess: You know why this is happening. Tell them to stop, Mother.
[Tess has demanded to speak to Niki Smith; Viki pretends to be Niki]
Tess: (to Dr. Jamison) Is she really Niki?
Viki: (pretending to be Niki) What's she? And what's it to you? And who the
hell do you got to sleep with to get a drink around here?
Tess: I hear you. Why don't we go to your favorite watering hole? What was
the name of it again?
Viki: Who cares what it's called, as long as the sign says "open" on the
door? That's all that counts.
Tess: Oh, yeah, yeah, but I'm sure you remember that big buffed-out bartender
-- tiny! That was his name, wasn't it?
Viki: Tiny was his I.Q.!
Tess: Nice play, Victoria. There was no Tiny. Who do you think you're dealing
with here? I know the woman, and you're not Niki.
Viki: Who are you calling a fake?
Tess: This conversation is over. Where's Nash?
[Tess comes out of a hypnosis session and finds Viki and Clint looking at
her]
Viki: It's all right, honey. It's -- it's me. It's Mom. Niki's gone.
Tess: Yeah, like you tell the truth.
Viki: Jessica agreed to let you out so that we could talk to you. Jessica
decided this.
Tess: Jessica's an idiot.
Tess: (to Viki and Dr. Jamison) Two, four, six, eight, I don't want to
integrate.
Viki: I know more about you than you want me to know.
Tess: Well, what I know about you is you want me gone.
Viki: No, that's not true. I don't want you gone. But I don't want you in
control.
Tess: Not your call.
Viki: You know, I've been thinking. When Jessie was about 4 years old, I
walked into this library and Jessica was walking up and down on the sofa
in her shoes. And I said to her she had to stop that and get down. And she
looked at me and stuck her little chin out and she said, "Sofas are not as
important as little girls." That was you, wasn't it?
Tess: You had a lot of rules.
Viki: And you taught me what matters and what's not important. You are my
daughter, and I love you, and I love you because you're funny. Mostly, I
love you because you bore the pain that Jessica couldn't handle. But the
thing is that pain is still with you and now it's time for it to go away
-- not you, the pain.
Tess: Ok. That's enough. Stop talking.
Viki: You think that talking about it is going to make it more real, but,
in fact, talking about it is what will make it start to go away. Tess?
Tess: You said my name.
Viki: Please, tell me what happened.
Tess: You know what, mommy? Maybe I'll just do that.
Tess: (to Viki, Clint, Antonio and Dr. Fox) God, what a bunch of control
freaks you guys are. It must be driving you nuts dealing with an unknown
quantity like myself.
Viki: You would become a part of Jessica when you're integrated.
Tess: Really? That's nice, because I've always wanted to be the little toe
of a wasp princess.
Tess: (to Viki and Clint) Oh, hi. You wouldn't be having a Jessica powwow
in there without inviting the guest of honor?
[Tess has decided to get the paternity test after all]
Tess: Let's get this over with!
Viki: Well, I'm very glad you decided to go rough with it, darling.
Tess: Jessica's your darling, not me.
[Viki wants to go with Tess to have the paternity test]
Viki: I'll get the car.
Tess: No, you're not coming.
Viki: I really think you should have --
Tess: I don't care what you think. It's bad enough that I have to bring dumb
and dumber [Nash and Antonio] with me. I don't need an entire entourage,
okay?
Viki: Fine. I'll stay here. I want you to know that I appreciate what you're
doing, and I know that Jessica appreciates it, too, especially since she
lost a child.
Tess: Well, I'm not doing it for Jessica. I'm not doing it for you, I'm not
doing it for Nash, and I'm not doing it for Antonio, I'm doing it for me.
Viki: (about Tess) She is no Niki Smith, but I know that she is still
dangerous.
Todd: And you still think that -- that she's out to get Jessica?
Viki: She wants her own life, but I don't think she wants to destroy Jessica
anymore the way she did before because I think she realizes that she needs
Jessie as much as Jessie needed her.
Todd: You like Tess?
Viki: She's my daughter.
Todd: Didn't answer my question.
Viki: Okay, truthfully, whenever I look at Tess, all I see is a threat to
Jessica. I mean, I know in my head that she is, of course, a part of Jessica
but -- I want Jessie back. I want my baby back. I want her the way she was.
And I know that's never going to happen because she will never be the same
again.
Clint: Viki, you know something? I think that you are terrified of Tess,
more terrified even than Jessica is.
Viki: Ok, that doesn't even make any sense.
Clint: You don't like to think that Tess is real because that makes Niki
real. But Tess is a flesh-and-blood personality of her own, capable of inflicting
pain on all the people who love Jessica, just like Niki did to the people
who loved you.